Good News


We had our appointment with the Genetics Counselor and the ultrasound.

The meeting with the GC wasn’t bad at all. I had read so many horror stories about women being pushed to do amnio’s and some even pushing for abortions.

We met with a lady named Nicole and she was the complete opposite. She was informative and listened to what we had to say. Respected our wishes for no amnio. And then she said the percentage of our baby having Downs Syndrome was so low based on my blood results. Music to our ears but still knew we weren’t in the clear.

Finally we did the ultrasound and the doctor looked over everything again. After a long silence, he said the baby looked perfectly healthy. He couldn’t find any markers for DS. Huge relief! I instantly started crying.

I know the ultrasound isn’t 100% but it makes me feel a whole lot better. I just feel like everything is going to be ok. And on the plus side, we got to see our little nugget again. This time we caught her (still dont know if its a “she” but I’ve been referring to baby as a girl) shaking her head back and forth and raising her little arm over her head. 🙂 Makes me smile just thinking about it.

Tomorrow we go in for our first 3d/4d ultrasounds. And on Saturday, we are going out to dinner with our families to find out if baby is a boy or girl. Oh, I forgot to mention we have the answer in an envelope that has been sealed for almost a week! We have fought the temptation to open it but we will soon find out. Can’t wait!!!!

And finally side to side pictures of my belly. My very first picture at 5 weeks and the most recent one taken two weeks ago.

It just suddenly grew!


Back Again


I’ve been a shitty blogger. I didn’t keep my promise to keep updating.

But I’m here now! 🙂

Let’s see…what has been going on? Well today I am officially 19 weeks!! Don’t know how that happened but time sure is speeding up. I still feel good. Just tired and a few aches and pains here and there but nothing too serious. I think the best word to describe my current state is: lazy. :/ Hence the broken promise of updating. But I plan on kicking laziness to the curb! I feel like we have so much to do before baby arrives so laziness just isn’t going to work. I do have to say that Claudia has been great this whole time and has really stepped up in the departments I’ve been lacking at. Chores.

Well back to playing catch up.

Awhile ago we did our first trimester screening (blood work and ultrasound) for birth defects and abnormalities and everything came back normal. We felt a huge sense of relief and figured everything else would be smooth sailing from there on out. On the 14th, we went in for our second trimester blood draw. No big deal. Except when I got a call from a genetics counselor on the 19th saying my results show a possible marker for Downs Syndrome.

The genetics counselor said we had three options: just leave it alone and wait til February and see what happens, another ultrasound or an amnio. We decided to do another ultrasound and then leave it at that. We won’t do the amnio. The risks of miscarriage is small yes but there is still a risk so we just don’t see the point in it.

No matter what we are keeping this baby and loving this baby. Nothing is going to change that. It has thrown a curve ball into our lives however. In the last couple of days I’ve thought “why?” We’ve been through so much to get to this point. To have this baby. Why can’t it just be easy for us now? I felt instant sadness and anger at my body yet again. Can’t it just get this one thing right?

I’ve had a few days to deal with what may be in store for us and I think I’m at peace with it now. Whatever happens happens. I just refuse to be sad. I’ve been sad for so long. This baby is what we have fought for for so long. Nothing is going to take that away. Right now is a time to be happy and grateful for the little miracle growing in my belly. However, I am not naive and I know it won’t be easy having a child with special needs but it also won’t be impossible. We will deal with whatever is thrown our way.

Today, in a couple of hours, is our ultrasound. We will also meet with a genetics counselor which I’m not too thrilled about. The ultrasound won’t give us a for sure yes or no but hopefully give us a little bit more information. I won’t lie. I’m a little nervous.

I’ll update soon with what happened at today’s appointment, gender reveal, belly shots, sonogram pictures and whatever else is going on.

But for now, I’ll leave you all with a picture of our little Dexter from the day he got his balls chopped off! 🙂 It was really hard to see him in pain but its been about a week since then and he is back to his normal, goofy self.